A few things...

Firstly, this.



I was so happy to hear that the original voice actor for Optimus Prime (Peter Cullen) from the original cartoon is being used for Optimus prime in the movie.

Brilliant. Childhood revisited.

Secondly, my week ahead horoscope from Jonathan Cainer.

Your Week Ahead 'You shall go to the ball!' So, traditionally, says the fairy godmother in pantomime performances at this time of year. Ah, but, what if you detest dancing? What if there is nothing you like less than the pomp and pretentiousness of a regal reception? What if you would prefer to stay at home cleaning the hearth? Then, the sight of a pumpkin in mid-transformation might inspire more resentment than excitement. It currently seems your fairy godmother has one idea about what would be good for you and you have another. But, if she is a TRUE protector, how can she be wrong? Trust the offer that's being made to you this New Year.

Well isn't that true. I mentioned that the other day didn't I?

Lots of things I want to do and then the other thing I have to do, that being work, the prior being everything else. Some of the stuff that fate handed me isn't all nice looking to my eye, but trust I shall.

I always feel that life lends a hand when needed. That anyone who really needs a particular thing, they'll get it. It isn't always what you imagine you need. But, things have a way of working out. Why they do so for the things they do so, I don't know. But I believe everything has a reason.

Thirdly, Cheers Andrew. That was a lovely comment. Maybe one day I will pop down to see yourself. I do want to travel the Americas one day and if I do, I'll stop by and visit. Hoprfully to try out some fantastic southern cooking too. Oh, and I already had a butchers at the top astronomy pictures. I loved the one of Earth taken from a billion miles away by Casini. Amazing...

Anyway, to finish off with this evening before bed. I've got myself into a slight worry this evo, but hopefully, what I fear might be a massive scary mountain, turns out to be a tiny no worry molehill with cute mole in it. I'm sure it will. But I do worry...

So, hopefully, waking tomorrow, all will be well in the world. I'd be really thankfull for that.

Zai jian.

My horoscope, from Jonathan Cainer.

"Your Weekend: Here you are, back on form. No more devastating self-doubt. No more time-wasting soul searching. You are not so sure that you feel this confident? Then give the weekend a little longer in which to work its magic. Your financial picture is starting to improve. Your love life has the potential to be more fulfilling than it has been for quite some time. And you are starting to have some very clever ideas. Don't ignore these. Trust your insights, ideas and visions. They will change your life in 2007."

Once again, as always is, spot on.

My financial picture is improving, yes. Love life more fulfilling, I hope so. Clever ideas, me? Erm...

When I get them, I'll pay good attention to them.

I do actually have good feelings for 2007. It's got a lot of appeal to it. I'm hopefull I'll be right come around. But life is as ever, not wanting to be understood or grasped and I'm sure will make the most of surprises befall next year.

What I'm also looking forward to is all the new technology that wil be developed and scientific discoveries made. I can't wait. Food for my brain and I do love to feed it.

Anywho, I'm tired and I'm going to relax in front of the t.v. and watch some dvds.

Ciao.

Juggling stuff.

There are many plans I have and many things I want to do. But for the love of trying to work them into a regular job, with regular working working hours is going to be very hard if not impossible for me.

Something I haven't fancied considering. I've got my heart set on so much, that right now, I cannot see if I will be able to fulfill half of my dreams if any at the moment.

While I have this job, I very much doubt time or energy for anything else. This year coming may be a case of work work work, save save save and then after a year do something.

I really and sincerely don't want to be boxed in to this life. This necessary evil I must do.

Those of you who have read me from years past know I hate work. Really don't like it.

I'd be better off being rich, but that's never going to happen. I an hear a lot of people saying the same thing though.
If I were, I'd travel, study, visit with friends far and wide, give help to people when they need it. I'd probably even offer free English lessons to people that need it.

Anyway, that's dream, I have reality. I'm fortunate to have a job, very fortunate. I don't believe that these things happen without reason. I like to feel that in some small way, there's a purpose and direction to things.

I hope it's true of now. Being back in full time work is really taking some getting used to on my part.

Anyway, it's probably karma, so I'll honer that and do my best in what I've been given and hopefully, with a little time, things will change and I'll be able to follow some of these dreams.

Work.

It's still, somewhere deep in my psychy, stressing me out. A couple of factors changed would make it incredibly bearable.

The hours from 1 to 9 to 9 to 5. So much better.

The travelling distance from an hour+ on the tube both ways, to a 20 minute walk would be so much better. However, I've been offered work way down there and will most likely have to work there for a while before the chance for transfer comes along. I'd love to work nearer home.

I'd also save myself a lot of money on public transport everyday. It's 12 pounds for three days travel and 18 for a five day week. That's quite a hefty take from the old earnings.

I could be at work now and be finished at 6. Although, I suppose I would get more flexibility when I'm on the regular payroll as opposed to short term work.

Well, I'm still adapting to my new working life and it's a big one for me. At least I get to watch the money situation improve over time. Hopefully I can put the vast majority away for next year and to new possibilities.

It's the toll I've got to pay for the future. I'm certain it will be worth it when I get there. To whatever life has in store for me...

Before I go to bed...

An intersting link for orrery lovers.

http://www.fourmilab.ch/cgi-bin/Solar

Boxing day.

I don't want to box, I can't quite remember why it's called boxing day either...

Golly, I want a holiday. Either that, or I'm too used to my easy lifestyle. I need to be rich. I'll have to start playing the lottery again.

God, I'd love to be rich. I need an easier lifestyle. Or, should I say a lifestyle more accommodating to the wants of my personal freedoms.

Yeah, it isn't going to be happening any time soon though. I'll have to work at this one for a while I think.

Work hard for an easy life, work easy for a hard life. I wish it were the other way round.

I've got to visit my friend, I'm not feeling like going to be honest. I want to lounge in the house and relax, I'm not in the mood to listen to her talk on and on today.

Anyway, let me finish up with a horoscope from my favourite astrologer.

"I existed from all eternity and, behold, I am here; and I shall exist till the end of time, for my being has no end." The poet who wrote these words was no great saint, yet he was telling the truth about himself. You can read the same sentence out loud and trust that it is every bit as appropriate coming from your mouth. Your physical being is not what's under discussion here. It is the spark of life within you that is endless. That's your true identity. Trust as much and make wise choices today.

Hmm, there's always something else a little deeper going on regardless of what lies on the top.

Is it Christmas?

I've been at work so often I don't feel certain that it is. Not to complain though, two days off to put my feet up. It'll be nice.

I'm still coming to terms with this though, as I'm finding out. I'm quite stressed. Not work stress in the normal sense, but stressed having gone from one extreme to the other. Without a slow dip in, it's been playing havock with my state of mind.

I woke up again last night with my mind racing. All that was going through my mind was all the produce that we sorted through from the night before.
We were organising one hundred customers orders. We must have spent four hours on it.

Looking up one number and the product name. Then the next and then the next, all without a break. So I woke up at about 3am, probably a couple of hours after I'd fallen asleep. My mind would not turn off. I've never had anything quite like that happen to me. I tried thinking of something else, but the torrent of mental activity wouldn't let up. I managed to fall asleep about half an hour later.

But I'm stil very stressed out. It's going to be a little while before I'm back on an even keel. Going from hot to cold has been dificult for me.

I have a couple of days to do flip all and I intend to. Looking forward to some time off.

I just want to sleep and hide myself away.

But it'll be nice tomorrow, I've just got to give myself a little time. All will be well.