Finished with the day, it's really nice to be home again. I have a whole day off.
1, a complete, a whole, like a circle. Mmm... lovely.
I don't know though, what I will do with myself tomorrow. I know I have the morning planned. Wake up early, enjoy laying on the floor and then get up and make myself a cup of tea. Listen to some music, write in the blog. Do all that morning stuff. Even go to the loo.
Yeah, that'll be nice.
I'll also hang out my back door and watch the birds flitter about the garden. I like to watch the blue tits and robins. The birdy place just outside. A little bit of nature untrampled on by human kind. It's really nice. I should try and get a video of the wee chaps. Maybe tomorrow, I'll pencil it in on my things to do list.
You know, I looked up today from behind my till, I saw my next customer and it hit me. I had become completely familiar with my job, it no longer feels strange to me. It's quite normal now. Checking what's in a basket and wondering about what order I should pack their stuff in.
It wasn't a perfect day, it was ok. I should've done a few things that I didn't do today, but che sucede, sucede.
Speaking of which, I made an Italian aquintance. He works at an Italian restaurant near my workplace. He's said to come round for food, but I need to find the time. Also some company as well. I look forward to mingling with Italians again.
My favourite people by far... But don't tell anyone.
Anyway, basta, I want to just browse the internet... ciao.
Saturday 10 February 2007
99th post.
9 being the incorruptible number.
Saturday, which used to mean no work. Now means work. Meh.
It's raining today, it's not snowing again as promissed, but if I lived out of london, it would probably much cooler and therefore snow.
Not for this city guy though.
I feel tired this morning, I just want a day off, in fact I find myself working for the sake of that one day off. I suppose that I want a little stability and familiarity. All the recent changes to life within the last couple of months have taken a bit of getting used to. I have a few more changes to deal with, I'll also have to go through the process of building up familiarity again with my soon to be new work collaegues.
I sometimes walk down the stairs and want to be at my destination instantly without the fuss of moving my body through space and time. I think that's how bad it's become.
It's probably living in this city again. I'm not sure I relish the moment anymore.
It takes time to achieve anything fantastic. A good pot of tea takes a little time. A good friendship can take years, I'm pleased to say I have a few of those now that I am midway to 60 years on this planet. Plants take time to grow, the planet takes time.
E v e r y l i t t l e t h i n g t a k e s t i m e. Like typing words out, creating sentences.
I suppose it's creating order or arriving at a certain finished state of being. Whatever it may be, from whatever thing it may be from.
When I pick up my bedding from the floor in the morning and move it out of the way so I can put my chair down to sit at my desk and write on the blog.
Just another moment, another brick, another action, to what? To ultimately where, I have no idea.
But I know that most things that are good take time to achieve. So, time time time.
A long long time.
I need to meditiate more, or rather that should be, again. Relax myself a bit and take it all one piece at a time.
Saturday, which used to mean no work. Now means work. Meh.
It's raining today, it's not snowing again as promissed, but if I lived out of london, it would probably much cooler and therefore snow.
Not for this city guy though.
I feel tired this morning, I just want a day off, in fact I find myself working for the sake of that one day off. I suppose that I want a little stability and familiarity. All the recent changes to life within the last couple of months have taken a bit of getting used to. I have a few more changes to deal with, I'll also have to go through the process of building up familiarity again with my soon to be new work collaegues.
I sometimes walk down the stairs and want to be at my destination instantly without the fuss of moving my body through space and time. I think that's how bad it's become.
It's probably living in this city again. I'm not sure I relish the moment anymore.
It takes time to achieve anything fantastic. A good pot of tea takes a little time. A good friendship can take years, I'm pleased to say I have a few of those now that I am midway to 60 years on this planet. Plants take time to grow, the planet takes time.
E v e r y l i t t l e t h i n g t a k e s t i m e. Like typing words out, creating sentences.
I suppose it's creating order or arriving at a certain finished state of being. Whatever it may be, from whatever thing it may be from.
When I pick up my bedding from the floor in the morning and move it out of the way so I can put my chair down to sit at my desk and write on the blog.
Just another moment, another brick, another action, to what? To ultimately where, I have no idea.
But I know that most things that are good take time to achieve. So, time time time.
A long long time.
I need to meditiate more, or rather that should be, again. Relax myself a bit and take it all one piece at a time.
Thursday 8 February 2007
Sleepy.
Really tired and am looking forward to getting to bed.
I have to say that snow melts pretty quick in London. Pretty quick indeed and for various reasons. I wasn't able to get out again with the camera.
So I only have a few shots. Although we may be in for more snow.
Sorry Andrew and snow lovers.
Anyway, I'd finished my day and was confronted by the usual shambles of the London underground. Namely delays. Delays and more delays. Apparently the trains don't like soft white fluffy stuff called snow. It tends to break them. We don't make very sturdy trains in this country, you know, leaves on the line stop 'em running. So, I was sat on the train studying Chinese, as it's pretty much the only constructive thing I can do with the hour+ it takes me to get to work and back again.
I noted four people coming on, a couple of guys holding beer cans and a lady, who turned out to be from spain, and a guy from France with luggage. They were chatting about travelling and stuff.
Which is right up my alley, so I was busy being nosey and the English guy with beer now sitting across the way from me says "English people are narrow minded, they don't study other languages."
To which I sat there, staring into my Chinese book, full of Chinese writing and wondering if I should wave it under his nose. I resisted the urge. I was tired and cold. So I kept quiet about it.
"I don't know how you have the courage to travel to other countries, I couldn't do it." He added. I then thought back to my first day in China and remembered that that was bloody hard. I took heart in that, at least I have the courage to strive for more than the status quo. A feather in my cap.
How I wanted to talk about my experiences. Quiet I remained. I suppose, in reality, or whatever, that none of that really matters. All is equally different and therefore equal. So, experience, gain loss, it all depends on you and your point of view. Nothing is said of everything, and everything is said of nothing.
Right?
I have to say that snow melts pretty quick in London. Pretty quick indeed and for various reasons. I wasn't able to get out again with the camera.
So I only have a few shots. Although we may be in for more snow.
Sorry Andrew and snow lovers.
Anyway, I'd finished my day and was confronted by the usual shambles of the London underground. Namely delays. Delays and more delays. Apparently the trains don't like soft white fluffy stuff called snow. It tends to break them. We don't make very sturdy trains in this country, you know, leaves on the line stop 'em running. So, I was sat on the train studying Chinese, as it's pretty much the only constructive thing I can do with the hour+ it takes me to get to work and back again.
I noted four people coming on, a couple of guys holding beer cans and a lady, who turned out to be from spain, and a guy from France with luggage. They were chatting about travelling and stuff.
Which is right up my alley, so I was busy being nosey and the English guy with beer now sitting across the way from me says "English people are narrow minded, they don't study other languages."
To which I sat there, staring into my Chinese book, full of Chinese writing and wondering if I should wave it under his nose. I resisted the urge. I was tired and cold. So I kept quiet about it.
"I don't know how you have the courage to travel to other countries, I couldn't do it." He added. I then thought back to my first day in China and remembered that that was bloody hard. I took heart in that, at least I have the courage to strive for more than the status quo. A feather in my cap.
How I wanted to talk about my experiences. Quiet I remained. I suppose, in reality, or whatever, that none of that really matters. All is equally different and therefore equal. So, experience, gain loss, it all depends on you and your point of view. Nothing is said of everything, and everything is said of nothing.
Right?
Snow day.
It's snowed!!!
I'll be out getting pictures of it. I will put them up much later on, when I'm back from work. Although, maybe just one now...
However, I will only be at this work for two more weeks. I'm still wondering about the decision on should I have changed or not. But, for the plans that I made last year, I will not be able to achieve them if I stay.
I also have to ask the question where do I see myself in 5 to 10 years time. Will I still be sat in the shop serving people and answering the question "Do you have any humus?"
Woopty doo.
No, I need to strive out for more, I do not want to sit on my laurels waiting for whatever. The future is very much what you make it.
The short will mean adjustment, it will mean a loss. I'll have to get used to new faces again. I hope this lot of people are all good with one another. If not, I suppose I'll just get on with it.
My horoscope from Jonathan Cainer is dead on right this morning too.
Have a read.
Once we had a handful of stations to choose from on our radio. Now, thanks to cable, satellite and digital internet transmission, there are thousands. There may even, one day, be millions. So much choice. How can you know what you want to hear, when you cannot possibly have time to sample all the alternatives? Today, you need to ask yourself a question about all that is familiar to you. Are you really happy with it? If so, there is no need to change. If not, what harm can it do to look around?
Well, to answer those questions.
Am I really happy with it? Yes, although I'm not happy about the time or the 960 quid ( which I just worked out) it will cost me for the years worth of travel. By crikey that's a lot of wonga.
Also just under one month in the year will have been spent sitting on a tube train. If I lived nearer there it would have been better. But alas, fate would have it another way.
so, yes, I am happy in many ways, and not happy in others. I cannot strive onward just working down there. As much as I like the staff, they really are a golden bunch.
Although that's probably going to be my trade off. Hopefully, I can forge ahead and make better of this year now I'll be saving 960 pounds!!! And saving one month of time this year.
Although, another astrologer in the London Light said, that I wont regret making the choice to move away from familiar surroundings.
So I'll take heart. Wonder whether or not I made the right decision, but then probably reach the conclusion that I can make it better for myself, simply by trying.
Here's to finding out...
I'll be out getting pictures of it. I will put them up much later on, when I'm back from work. Although, maybe just one now...
However, I will only be at this work for two more weeks. I'm still wondering about the decision on should I have changed or not. But, for the plans that I made last year, I will not be able to achieve them if I stay.
I also have to ask the question where do I see myself in 5 to 10 years time. Will I still be sat in the shop serving people and answering the question "Do you have any humus?"
Woopty doo.
No, I need to strive out for more, I do not want to sit on my laurels waiting for whatever. The future is very much what you make it.
The short will mean adjustment, it will mean a loss. I'll have to get used to new faces again. I hope this lot of people are all good with one another. If not, I suppose I'll just get on with it.
My horoscope from Jonathan Cainer is dead on right this morning too.
Have a read.
Once we had a handful of stations to choose from on our radio. Now, thanks to cable, satellite and digital internet transmission, there are thousands. There may even, one day, be millions. So much choice. How can you know what you want to hear, when you cannot possibly have time to sample all the alternatives? Today, you need to ask yourself a question about all that is familiar to you. Are you really happy with it? If so, there is no need to change. If not, what harm can it do to look around?
Well, to answer those questions.
Am I really happy with it? Yes, although I'm not happy about the time or the 960 quid ( which I just worked out) it will cost me for the years worth of travel. By crikey that's a lot of wonga.
Also just under one month in the year will have been spent sitting on a tube train. If I lived nearer there it would have been better. But alas, fate would have it another way.
so, yes, I am happy in many ways, and not happy in others. I cannot strive onward just working down there. As much as I like the staff, they really are a golden bunch.
Although that's probably going to be my trade off. Hopefully, I can forge ahead and make better of this year now I'll be saving 960 pounds!!! And saving one month of time this year.
Although, another astrologer in the London Light said, that I wont regret making the choice to move away from familiar surroundings.
So I'll take heart. Wonder whether or not I made the right decision, but then probably reach the conclusion that I can make it better for myself, simply by trying.
Here's to finding out...
Wednesday 7 February 2007
Got it.
They just rang me up, after seeing them this afternoon and going through an "interview", to confirm that I can work there.
So, I will be closer to home, I will finish at 2pm in the afternoon and I keep the same pay. Thank heavens.
For me, I don't know about you, but there's always that point, that once you've got what you sought, you look down at it there and think, but do I really want it?
I think it's a natural reaction to a sudden change. A bit like when I found myself sat in my flat in China for the very first time and I absolutely balls'd myself. I was a wreck. I thought I'd made the worst decision ever.
Although it turned out to be the best decision ever. I just had to get on with it.
So, it will be a bump, it will mean having to readjust again. But, for the long term, it is what I want and I'm at that stage in my life where I have to focus on those long term goals.
I have money and more importantly, I have my time back. So, I have the two ingredients to help me on the way to a fantastic 2007.
I'll miss the guys up at where I was, but I need to change.
It's funny, that saying is true. Be careful what you ask for, you might just get it.
I was careful, and have considered it long and hard, I also felt the need to change deep down, and got what I wanted.
I have myself some lemons, so I'm going to make some Lemonade.
Now I can really get cracking. But I have to first clear up things with the guys on my end. I have two weeks.
So, I will be closer to home, I will finish at 2pm in the afternoon and I keep the same pay. Thank heavens.
For me, I don't know about you, but there's always that point, that once you've got what you sought, you look down at it there and think, but do I really want it?
I think it's a natural reaction to a sudden change. A bit like when I found myself sat in my flat in China for the very first time and I absolutely balls'd myself. I was a wreck. I thought I'd made the worst decision ever.
Although it turned out to be the best decision ever. I just had to get on with it.
So, it will be a bump, it will mean having to readjust again. But, for the long term, it is what I want and I'm at that stage in my life where I have to focus on those long term goals.
I have money and more importantly, I have my time back. So, I have the two ingredients to help me on the way to a fantastic 2007.
I'll miss the guys up at where I was, but I need to change.
It's funny, that saying is true. Be careful what you ask for, you might just get it.
I was careful, and have considered it long and hard, I also felt the need to change deep down, and got what I wanted.
I have myself some lemons, so I'm going to make some Lemonade.
Now I can really get cracking. But I have to first clear up things with the guys on my end. I have two weeks.
Tuesday 6 February 2007
Yes!
You wont believe it. Not in a million years. I hardly believe it.
Amazing.
That lady really went out of her way for me. I was called upstairs to pick up my pay for the last couple of weeks. It should go straight into the bank from now on. Thankfully. Anyway, I was up there and I heard "oh yes, little red robin, I'll let him know for you, I'll ask him. Ok".
I picked up my heals and stuck my head through the door.
"I heard my name mentioned"
"Oh, here he is now, do you want to talk with him?" She then handed me the phone.
It was the one of two shops that was nearest where I live. Only 20 minutes walk from the door. Excellent.
The lady on the other end introduced herself and gave me the quick blurb about the shop, then said quick as a daisy "the hours are from six to two" YES. I thought, it was exactly what I wanted. Exactly. I couldn't have planned it better.
I could not believe it. What are the odds of one of the two shops within walking distance would have a vacancy coming up that fits the time I wanted to a tee.
Pretty darn slim, that's what.
Finally. Hopefully, the begining is back in sight for all my dreams and ambitions again.
I'll be getting back my time and saving that 80 quid on not having to use the damn tube. Yay!
The soonest I can swap shops is a couple of weeks thereabouts. Fantastic.
Then I can get back to teaching English privately. I can start my impro performing. I can see my friends in the evenings. Everything opens up again. Brilliant.
Yay!
Amazing.
That lady really went out of her way for me. I was called upstairs to pick up my pay for the last couple of weeks. It should go straight into the bank from now on. Thankfully. Anyway, I was up there and I heard "oh yes, little red robin, I'll let him know for you, I'll ask him. Ok".
I picked up my heals and stuck my head through the door.
"I heard my name mentioned"
"Oh, here he is now, do you want to talk with him?" She then handed me the phone.
It was the one of two shops that was nearest where I live. Only 20 minutes walk from the door. Excellent.
The lady on the other end introduced herself and gave me the quick blurb about the shop, then said quick as a daisy "the hours are from six to two" YES. I thought, it was exactly what I wanted. Exactly. I couldn't have planned it better.
I could not believe it. What are the odds of one of the two shops within walking distance would have a vacancy coming up that fits the time I wanted to a tee.
Pretty darn slim, that's what.
Finally. Hopefully, the begining is back in sight for all my dreams and ambitions again.
I'll be getting back my time and saving that 80 quid on not having to use the damn tube. Yay!
The soonest I can swap shops is a couple of weeks thereabouts. Fantastic.
Then I can get back to teaching English privately. I can start my impro performing. I can see my friends in the evenings. Everything opens up again. Brilliant.
Yay!
Tuesday.
8 hours of work, get home by 10pm, then I have a day off. Yay!
This has to be the most waisted I've felt my days to have been in some time. Although, that is quite a sweeping viewpoint of my situation. I am working and I am making money.
The first of which I am ever so fortunate to have and I shouldn't take for granted. The second of which is natural spoils, which will help me with the rest of my plans this year and beyond.
The lady I asked about moving work closer to home really went out of her way for me. To which I am very thankful and grateful.
She contacted three shops near to where I live, there's one which is about a half hour bus journey away for me. The other two are a short walk, about 20 minutes in total. Although, one of them doesn't need any staff, the other, she is still waiting for a reply.
So I have two possibilities. Which may or may not yield the results I need. We'll see.
I might find out today actually, or latest Thursday or Friday. But all in good time, I'm just pleased this part is ticking over now.
It's another rung up the ladder. Steady as she goes little red robin.
This has to be the most waisted I've felt my days to have been in some time. Although, that is quite a sweeping viewpoint of my situation. I am working and I am making money.
The first of which I am ever so fortunate to have and I shouldn't take for granted. The second of which is natural spoils, which will help me with the rest of my plans this year and beyond.
The lady I asked about moving work closer to home really went out of her way for me. To which I am very thankful and grateful.
She contacted three shops near to where I live, there's one which is about a half hour bus journey away for me. The other two are a short walk, about 20 minutes in total. Although, one of them doesn't need any staff, the other, she is still waiting for a reply.
So I have two possibilities. Which may or may not yield the results I need. We'll see.
I might find out today actually, or latest Thursday or Friday. But all in good time, I'm just pleased this part is ticking over now.
It's another rung up the ladder. Steady as she goes little red robin.
This was going to be a comment.
"I doubt very much that anything we ever write or could write or that had been written would be seen without a bad light or a good one be those viewing. Even the middle of the road view.
There are so many points of view that it would be all but impposible to accomplish.
Truth carries no voice, but is firmly spoken."
But I changed my mind and put it up here instead. What do you reackon?
There are so many points of view that it would be all but impposible to accomplish.
Truth carries no voice, but is firmly spoken."
But I changed my mind and put it up here instead. What do you reackon?
Monday 5 February 2007
Monday morn, yet again.
Round and round and round those wheels turn. I get a bit dizzy from it all sometimes.
Back to blerk today, but only two days, then I'm off. Also, my mate will be coming soon to London. As he told me on the phone yesterday. I hadn't had a chat with the old boy in quite sometime. We had a good old chin wag.
He's not actually getting any time off work as such. "I'm chucking a sickie, I'm gonna tell them I've put my back out".
He'd also been drinking heavily a week ago, and was quite ill on Monday when he went in for work.
"Why don't you take a sick day?" All his colleagues were saying.
I laughed. "Isn't it typical, as soon as you chuck a sickie, you actually get sick."
"Sorry mate, I can't" I could imagine him saying "My backs going to be put out in a couple of weeks"
We were in stitches. I lok forward to seeing the old boy again.
Also, on the case of Irealnd, I'll be going there to visit him as well. I emailed my Italian mate in Italy, but she hasn't replied and as I don't want to flip about there all on my own. I'll use my holiday time to see my friend.
I have ten days. I might have a look for flights now actually and see if I can get them on the cheap whilst it's early. I wont be going until mid march thereabouts. But I have to chuck with my inline manager if that'll be ok. Which I'm sure it will, he's such an easy going person. For numerous reasons, which I may or may not divulge here...
My girlfriend from China will be coming toward the end of April now too. When she comes, I doubt very much I'll have any holiday. So I'll do just what my mate did and chuck a sickie. Touch wood, I don't actually get sick before then. That would be a bummer.
My ear syringing appointment is for next week Wednesday. Not as soon as I'd hoped, which means on friday this week, I'll start using the olive oil ear drops to soften the wax that the doctor prescribed.
I think it worked too well last time, or I mushed it up. My right ear rings louder than it did before and it's constant now since I last applied them. So I hope the syringing gets rid of all the clog and the ringing at the same time. As the stuff is probably just resting against the ear drum.
I cannot wait. Hearing back to normal. no more EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...
Anyway, I'm cautiously optimistic for the future. I don't know if I'll get work closer to home just yet, I don't know if my Chinese girlfriend will be able to stay over here and study in the future, I don't know if I'll ever make something of my little plan to start teaching English privately.
But, the possibilites are there. We'll see... How much is life willing to allow for.
Ciao a tutti.
Back to blerk today, but only two days, then I'm off. Also, my mate will be coming soon to London. As he told me on the phone yesterday. I hadn't had a chat with the old boy in quite sometime. We had a good old chin wag.
He's not actually getting any time off work as such. "I'm chucking a sickie, I'm gonna tell them I've put my back out".
He'd also been drinking heavily a week ago, and was quite ill on Monday when he went in for work.
"Why don't you take a sick day?" All his colleagues were saying.
I laughed. "Isn't it typical, as soon as you chuck a sickie, you actually get sick."
"Sorry mate, I can't" I could imagine him saying "My backs going to be put out in a couple of weeks"
We were in stitches. I lok forward to seeing the old boy again.
Also, on the case of Irealnd, I'll be going there to visit him as well. I emailed my Italian mate in Italy, but she hasn't replied and as I don't want to flip about there all on my own. I'll use my holiday time to see my friend.
I have ten days. I might have a look for flights now actually and see if I can get them on the cheap whilst it's early. I wont be going until mid march thereabouts. But I have to chuck with my inline manager if that'll be ok. Which I'm sure it will, he's such an easy going person. For numerous reasons, which I may or may not divulge here...
My girlfriend from China will be coming toward the end of April now too. When she comes, I doubt very much I'll have any holiday. So I'll do just what my mate did and chuck a sickie. Touch wood, I don't actually get sick before then. That would be a bummer.
My ear syringing appointment is for next week Wednesday. Not as soon as I'd hoped, which means on friday this week, I'll start using the olive oil ear drops to soften the wax that the doctor prescribed.
I think it worked too well last time, or I mushed it up. My right ear rings louder than it did before and it's constant now since I last applied them. So I hope the syringing gets rid of all the clog and the ringing at the same time. As the stuff is probably just resting against the ear drum.
I cannot wait. Hearing back to normal. no more EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...
Anyway, I'm cautiously optimistic for the future. I don't know if I'll get work closer to home just yet, I don't know if my Chinese girlfriend will be able to stay over here and study in the future, I don't know if I'll ever make something of my little plan to start teaching English privately.
But, the possibilites are there. We'll see... How much is life willing to allow for.
Ciao a tutti.
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