In the mush.

The mush of life that is. All the good stuff, all the bad stuff and all the inbetween stuff. All the things I understand, all the things I don't and all those things I think I kinda mighta understand.

That's what I've got with me and that's what I'm walking with into the future with, and I'll probably get more of that mush up there as I travel.

Horoscope? Yeah, from Jonthan Cainer.

Where precisely, is this 'box' that we are all supposed to think outside? What is it up there, in the blue sky that we ought to be dwelling on? Business gurus seem to specialise in finding complicated phrases to describe something simple. You now need to be a little more imaginative. You don't need to go on a course or read a book. You simply have to allow yourself to envisage a better, brighter future. Then you have to start taking the kind of action that is likely to help bring this about.

Fabby.

I thought I had been envisaging a brighter future, although just recently I've found my thoughts of a brighter future shrinking and shirking in the light of my current reality. I think I've got to fan those flames again, add some more firewood.

I know the kind of the shape I want things to take.
Here's how it breaks down.

Firstly, my lady from China is coming here, to the uk. I want time off to be with her a while. She's here for a couple of weeks, I'd like to see her. So I will.

Secondly, I must must must and will, get that magical transfer closer to home and get those earlier working hours I seek. But I think it would suit me better to work harder and impress the bosses here some more. They will probably be more inclined if I've 'given it a go' rather than just jump ship straight away. Also I can argue a better case if I try and have tried but things just aren't working out for me, all that mush.

Thirdly, implement my further plans of action.

These are; impro performing, stand up comedy once again, enrol on a Chinese language course, start teaching English privately to paying customers and enjoy more time doing stuff generally. Because my 1 to 9 five days a week, stink.

So, it's nice to know what I want and how I'm going to get it for a change. I've spent great swathes of my life farting about. It'll be even nicer once I've nailed that transfer, but as ever, time it takes, time it needs. Time. Time. Time.

So paitiently and with determination, marching onward I go...

... through the mush...

My horoscope, from Jonathan Cainer.

"Your Weekend: Here you are, back on form. No more devastating self-doubt. No more time-wasting soul searching. You are not so sure that you feel this confident? Then give the weekend a little longer in which to work its magic. Your financial picture is starting to improve. Your love life has the potential to be more fulfilling than it has been for quite some time. And you are starting to have some very clever ideas. Don't ignore these. Trust your insights, ideas and visions. They will change your life in 2007."

Once again, as always is, spot on.

My financial picture is improving, yes. Love life more fulfilling, I hope so. Clever ideas, me? Erm...

When I get them, I'll pay good attention to them.

I do actually have good feelings for 2007. It's got a lot of appeal to it. I'm hopefull I'll be right come around. But life is as ever, not wanting to be understood or grasped and I'm sure will make the most of surprises befall next year.

What I'm also looking forward to is all the new technology that wil be developed and scientific discoveries made. I can't wait. Food for my brain and I do love to feed it.

Anywho, I'm tired and I'm going to relax in front of the t.v. and watch some dvds.

Ciao.

Mmm...

Virgin Galactic.



One day, you and I, may well be going to space. Give it another 15 years. We'll all be doing this. Technology will improve and cost will come down.


I'd also like to give this a go.

Future plans.

I'm excited, so excited that I want to get up and charge about the place and do a thousand things today, although I don't have a thousand things to do. Which has left me feeling like a Ferrari locked up in a garage. RRmmmm...(the spell checker reckons that should be remember)

Why am I excited, because finally, after going loop the loop for the last ten years or so, I think I can finally follow out a dream plan of action. I don't know if I can make it work, but I want to find out.

After this year ends, I want to buy myself some English teaching materials and start getting myself some one to one students and teach English. So hopefully, I'll be able to build up a large client base, through word of mouth and given a little time, I'll be able to move away from working for others and work for myself.
Ideal. Perfect, wonderful that would be.

Then, or rather as that's happening I can pursue my dream of doing some more performing, whether it's stand up comedy again (I've dipped my toes in that pool before), improvised performing (and that pool), which I'm currently doing now, but work constraints wont allow. That's me working for someone else and not teaching, just retail.

So hopefully that'll end sometime next year. I'll need to be able to work part time, to give me the time to do my own thing. Then I'll be able to stop normal work as my own work picks up pace and then follow up my dream of performing once more.

If I can make it work, I can really make that happen, it'll be the best. The very best time of my life.

An old African proverb would be best to finish this off I think.

"When you pray, move your feet".


I think I will.