The longest possible time before more work.

And I might just be going nuts.

Constraints! Argh!

I'm feeling the need to break out. I am feeling terribly unfulfilled at the moment. Life has taken on the "new guy gets all the crap chucked at him" shade of grey.

Maybe I'll attack some glove puppets or something, maybe even go extreme and attack a muppet. Nah, I like muppets, they sound like strumpets.

I am a little bit bored. Have you also ever written another word instead of the one you were going to becuase you couldn't rememeber how to spell it?

I feel I need some guidence from the sky. Time for a horoscope... from Jonathan Cainer, my favourite astrologer, and probab;y one of the few worth reading.

"The Week Ahead: Imagine being starving hungry. Now imagine being offered a choice. A gigantic candy bar? Or a nutritious, delicious meal? There is just one catch. The good food won't be ready for a while - and you'll have to travel much further to get it. And remember, it is a choice. One or the other. Now, what are you going to go for? Hmmm, I wonder. Some easy options are hard to resist. Worse, once we get into the habit of taking them, we find ourselves forgetting all about the better solutions. It won't be easy to do what's right this week, but it will be possible. It will also, once you fully commit to your brave choice, be deeply rewarding."

Oh yes, oh yes, oh yes. Why does that seem to make so much sense to me right now. Because I'm hungry for something fun. I'm hungry for life to hold more than just doo. I could probably try for quick fixes.
But I should probably hold out for much more. Nuts.

Why can't the quick fix, be the good fix for a change? Grumble...

I always think back to the matrix when neo wakes up in the train station and talks to the guy there. When they discuss karma.
I wonder what my karma has in store? If it even works that way. Heck, I dunno.

I've got a bad back and I have to take it easy this weekend.

Which means doing much of very little. Again.

Apart from waiting for work to roll round again and me to repeat the same exact sequence of things I did before.

Bleurghurle wurgle. Bleh...

Still, I have my plans. Which will soon move into practical reality. The first step to doing a little more with my time. Toward being better off financially. To being freer, in the ways I want to be. As none of us are ever truly free.

Anyway. I think I'll fart about te internet a bit more then pop down the road for fish and chips. I feel like it. Comfort food. Tomorrow I'll make a soup, or maybe not. Considering the number that'll do on my behind. It ain't good to go through work like that either. Man, that first day was a tough day.

Anyway. Too much rubbish have I written out now. Time to get back to whatever it is to be ne again...

Hmm, a suitable title. I know "ARRGGHHHH!"

STRESS.

Man am I stressed. 4 weeks in and now all the nitty gritty is working its way to the surface. Now I'm beginning to see all things I knew I'd get from trading in working at the other place. There's always a toll to pay for all the things you want in life.

This week has been hard. Very hard and it ain't quite over yet.

I'm looking forward to being an old man one day. I really am. By then it'll have bitten me, fooled me, puzzled me, manhandled me and all the rest, good or bad. Then I'll be able to just sit back and smile.

But not now. Not just yet. I've still gotta walk the walk.

Which means dealing with the consequences of my choice.
The people here are not the same as the other ones over there. I do not like my fat manager. He's a bit younger than me and isn't really a nice guy. I prefer the deputy, she's older and a little more grown up than that fat idiot who's boss. Although he's obviously done the work to get to where he is. So I suppose kudos should go out to him. Still can't stand the twit though.

I've still got a lot of things to get under my belt as far as work is concerned. I'm just pleased the one in the know is back on board next week.

Horoscope time, from Jonathan Cainer.

It may take you a while to settle down. You have been seriously stirred up of late and you remain a little sensitive. An emotive issue is under discussion today. You appear to be in a bit of a no-win situation. Yet there is someone or something you are keen to protect. This desire to ensure the best possible outcome is beginning to undermine your ability to make an objective judgment. Despite all that seems so volatile or so difficult, you are about to see a vast improvement this weekend.

True, true, true. All true. I really hope things improve this weekend. I really do.

Although I'm doubtfull. I don't feel that way about things at the moment.

Bleh! There's still one more thing I've got to do to make my life a little easier before tomorrow starts. Whihc I might get around to a little bit later on.

Anyway, I want to waft away in fantasy, so I've got "Firefly" playing. I need some time off.

Meh.

Phew...

2 days in to my 6 day week. I'm still busy sorting out the mess someone else had caused from the weekend. They were in Sunday and had gotten entirely confused. Leaving the resultant mess for me to sort out. I also had to complete all of the most importamt Monday specific tasks. Which was simpler than I imagined.

But as my russian associate is on holiday. I've got all the work, without her help. But to be fair on myself I am not doing half bad.

Although sorting out the mess from Sunday is taking a while. They'd also balls'd something else up yesterday which I am trying to sort out.

My job seems to be ironing out all the mistakes other people make during work. But, such is life.

My back is also killing me today. So, as soon as I got home, I laid down and haven't really moved arond much since then. I'm rubbing on olbas oil to cool it down. It's quite a pleasent sensation.
I also made the horrendous error of walking out the shop with the work keys still in my pocket. I got home and simply waved my fist in vain and turned around and went back to work. Thank heavens I only work two mins away by tube.

Anyway, enough of work. On to love.

Unfortunately, nothing is biting my lure. Zilch, zippo, nada, niente. I could really use a love in my life now. I would really like to have the smell of a lady in my life again. I'm remembering old times long past. It is the smell that sticks in my mind you know. It can't be beat. Must be an evolutionary thing.

Hoping my fortunes may change soon...

I'm looking forward to going on holiday and buying my x-box 360.
I will book my flight to Ireland as soon as I get a holiday. Cannot wait. It'll be nice to breathe that beautiful air again. The cleanest in all the world, easily.

At any rate I'm looking forward to some of the more rosier and adventurous times. Also more relaxing times. I am a creature of comfort after all.

I will be meeting my Italian friend tomorrow, I've not seen her since she was pregnant and tomorrow will be the first time I've seen her son. I've missed my friend, it'll be good to see her again.

Dinner is ready, I must be off.

Ubuntu.

I've been using it on and off most of the day. It's looking pretty ship shape at the moment.

I was worried this morning when I realised I might not be able to use msn messenger on it. However, I dug around and sure enough I can. I looked in Applications Add/Remove programmes and everything I could want to use is pretty much there. The file organisation is different from windows, but I don't think it's anything I couldn't get used to.

My one bother is that I didn't purchase the windows xp cd with the computer when I bought it. I thought I didn't have the money to do so at the time. So, the only windows version I have is the one on the machine. I'd rather not un-install it, but it occurs to me that I might be able to back up the whole machine on writeable dvds. I'll have to check that out though, I think I can do that through my acer E-management software, so I may not need to worry much.

I'd have to download files for playing mp3 files. But that shouldn't be too much of a problem.

The only thing that does bother bother is that my acer inbuilt webcam doesn't work. Nor, does the memory card reader slot. Ubuntu seems blissfully unaware of them. However, the usb slots all function. It recognised my mp3 player and my camera. I was able to play about with a couple of photos off of it this morning.

I wondered why I want to change os, when really, windows has never given me any trouble to be honest. I'm a cautious web surfer so am unlikely to pick up any viruses. I also have Norton anti virus.

I'm aware that at the moment there probably are few viruses for Ubuntu/Linux, but not one os is invincible. Just like real life.

I want to do much more digging around with this. I've also wondered about installing it on my other hard drive, as this machine has two of them. Then, perhaps, I could boot up from either one and have the best of both worlds. Who knows? I need to find out...

Hmm...

Another day of my life. Much like the one yesterday and will be much like the one tomorrow. I imagine I have some time to go before things alter again. It's at times like these that I wonder what on earth it is all for.

Not that I'm taking a bleak look into things, in some ways it's very nice. But it does make you wonder.

I get up, do the usual stuff, dream for the usual stuff, want for the usual stuff.

It's not very peaceful. A restless soul it is. I suppose most of it is drawn from physical, corporeal desires. Friendship, affection, love, all these things.

Most of which I feel I am lacking in one way or another.
I think I'm getting back into my old way of optimisticly expecting some miraculous change, without me really doing anything to get it. Which is just a little bit hit and miss really.

I suppose it's my karma.

I wonder what I am paying for through all of this?

A right or a wrong? I really suppose that doesn't matter at all. But I'm hoping, hmm, for a nice something later on. Although I should probably re-word that to say 'I'm working toward something nice later on'.

I need more money, I can make more money. I really just have to get underway with the plans that I made before christmas.

So...