I was tired.

I woke at 10am this morning. I had a few dreams, just the usual travel / unusal animal combo.

My other little learning of today, in my first 34 minutes of it, is that I really really really must try as hard as I can to work for myself teaching English.

I cannot, CANNOT, bear working this way for a long time. It's killing me slowly softly. Take me back to the nice 2 to 4 hour days, with work spaced nicely during the week. Teaching is so much better.

This is re-newing that initial wish to go it for myself.

Anything wil be better than my current work. Blurgh!

So, I need to start teaching again.

My own set of books, all levels, beginner to advance. My own materials, tonnes of stuff. Simply loads of things, for all levels. Lessons plans. realia, all that stuff, even a few klines and exponents.

London isn't supporting my wish in one way, i.e looking for work, but it may support my wish to go it for myself.

London town, it's my home, I want to know it better, I still wnat to be able to do all that stuff, go places, do things, see London. I feel sure I could mix teaching and going out and doing stuff in London into one thing. Which is something no school here does, well, no, they do. But I want to do it another more in depth way.

Anyway, I need a few material things before I can even do any of this.

A computer = Check.
A printer of my own = erm, not a check, got to buy one.
Books = yep, need to buy them.
Materials = erm, need those too.

Money to buy them with = In process through very dull horrible work that takes away all my day.

So, as you can see, my thrive is alive once more. I want to work independently from others, for myself, by myself.

Because, that's going to give me so much freedom and happiness if I can pull it all off.

I think I should make all this my new years resolution. It's nearly Christmas, which means one thing for me.

TWO DAYS OFF WORK! YAY!

Future plans.

I'm excited, so excited that I want to get up and charge about the place and do a thousand things today, although I don't have a thousand things to do. Which has left me feeling like a Ferrari locked up in a garage. RRmmmm...(the spell checker reckons that should be remember)

Why am I excited, because finally, after going loop the loop for the last ten years or so, I think I can finally follow out a dream plan of action. I don't know if I can make it work, but I want to find out.

After this year ends, I want to buy myself some English teaching materials and start getting myself some one to one students and teach English. So hopefully, I'll be able to build up a large client base, through word of mouth and given a little time, I'll be able to move away from working for others and work for myself.
Ideal. Perfect, wonderful that would be.

Then, or rather as that's happening I can pursue my dream of doing some more performing, whether it's stand up comedy again (I've dipped my toes in that pool before), improvised performing (and that pool), which I'm currently doing now, but work constraints wont allow. That's me working for someone else and not teaching, just retail.

So hopefully that'll end sometime next year. I'll need to be able to work part time, to give me the time to do my own thing. Then I'll be able to stop normal work as my own work picks up pace and then follow up my dream of performing once more.

If I can make it work, I can really make that happen, it'll be the best. The very best time of my life.

An old African proverb would be best to finish this off I think.

"When you pray, move your feet".


I think I will.