Lying wotsit.

The female manager at the shop asked me to go and buy some a4 paper the other day. We'd run out.

"Red robin, can you go and buy some paper for the shop. Either at woolworths or the photocopying shop which is next door"

"Yeah ok" I replied.

Time was pressing on and I knew we needed paper to print off all the paper work that we needed. So I went to the nearest shop, which was the photocopying shop.
Now I don't buy paper everyday and have no real idea of how much it costs. Not a clue. I asked the man behind the counter.

"Can I buy some a4 paper here?"

"Yeah, sure, what would you like?" He listed a couple of types of paper and I opted for the bog standard. Nothing fancy.

"That's £23.50p"

Wow, I thought to myself. I handed over my card and paid for it.

I took it back to the shop and walked into the office downstairs. The fat boy manager and the other deputy manager (quite a nice guy) were both there. I told them how much it cost.

"who told you to buy paper" The fat boy manager asked me. I answered him and he quickly responded "Well, I'm not authorising it and she can try explaining that to..." He said the name of the BIG bosses of the shops. The one who's been doing the rounds at the moment.

A while later on the till, whilst I was serving a customer, the lady manager came up to me and said "The fat manager isn't authorising that purchase"

In other words, I'm not going to get back the money I paid for it. Did I mention that it came out of my pocket and I had to reclaim the cash?

Then she walked off, leaving me at the till thinking I'm not going to get my money. Which as you can imagine was a little distracting. I was quite cross.

After I'd finished there, I walked to the stairs at the back of the shop to go on my break.

The lady manager was there "Red robin, it's authorised, but I asked you to see which shop sold it for cheaper."

What? I thought to myself. She never said that to me. I wasn't a hundred percent certain of the exact conversation but am pretty damn sure she never said that. I couldn't believe it. She's lying.

I'm still stunned. I just think she's trying to cover her own arse and dump me in the crap.

Fortunately, they justified the purchase by using the paper, when they could simply have asked me to return it and get the money back. Simple really. That simple blunder will save me from any huge slagging off.

Also, I did get my money back. But she will try to pin it on me.

We'll see how this goes.

I'm really angry and put upon at the moment. I really hate this shop sometimes, I wish I hadn't transferred sometimes you know, the last shop was far better than this.

Cause it makes me happy.

Gawd bless. How I do miss this show...

Cloudy days.

You ever wonder if life chucks a load of crap your way because you're needed to do something else. Be a little different than you are now.

That the form you hold is insuficient for what the time requires.

I'm contemplating a big change for me. Something well within my means to aquire, but it will mean certain restrictions placed apn me. Finanacially I'd be a little worse off than now. I wouldn't be able to save all I could. There's also hidden uncertainties, which I wont find out about until I actually do it. If I do it. I'm merely entertaining thoughts at the moment.

Pluses would be numerous. There might be draw backs unknown to my mind at present. It would mean my current plan goes to poop really, or at least is delayed somewhat. But, as I reacll, I live in the now. Not then. I'm never in then. So I suppose, I should live with the now, rather than borrowed time (if that's what you call it) and do something now. With what's at hand.

It would, on a positive, open up many things that I am unable. or at least, feel unable to do right now. I could relax and be myself and not have to worry about all the crap that surrounds me in this place.

It's a big change. Which, I've learnt over the few short years in my life, generally mean new things happen. Some good, some not so good. But in the end, it's all good experience. And experience is what it's all about.

So I'm mulling this one over for a little bit. I'll speak to a few people I know about it. See what they think.

But, it's probably a good idea. I'll just have to let go of my preconceived notions about what I think 'should be'. Because I really do not know. Not at all.

Cloudy days, they may yet give way to a bit more sunshine. In fact, they usually do.

Cloged up.

I'm having a clog up of the old writing pipes at the moment. I'm having a general clog up of the pipes too.

Life is backed up, and it's all down to me.

Is there a way out of this funk I have found myself in? Only time will tell...

Wish me all the best.

Right now.

I'm having a fantastic two day weekend. I'm ever so relaxed and feel much rested.

I'm missing my time in China, or moreover, my time with my friends there. The community I once had but have no more.

~sigh~

But, I'm well. Feel good today. Work tomorrow, then another day off and back to the working world.

But for now, I'm off to see Die Hard 4.0 with my Somlaian mate.

Ciao regazzi.

Working it through.

That's how it feels for me at the moment, I'm digesting something large and heavy. It's being worked through the guts of my mind. I've been bubbling and churning things over for a few days and I probably have a few more to go.
Fortunately I can enjoy a weekend off this week. So, tomorrow is my last day of work for the week.

Yay!

Which means I can put all my mental digestiveness aside for a short while and focus on something else.

You know, I've written about this a few times before, but I feel like doing so again. I'm definitely getting older. I really notice it now. The things some of the "slightly" younger people around me say are starting to sound really immature.

My 22 year old boss is a complete n*b. Utterly totally. He has the maturity of a 4 year old. Some of the things he says to me are just so ridiculous. I cannot imagine why he would say them.
He's obviously done the work to get to his position, but there's no maturity. He isn't an adult.

I wouldn't even call myself an adult, and I'm tipping the scales at 30 years now. I'm very much aware of my short comings and all the troubles around me. In fact, I find myself much more watchful of my surroundings. Rather than mouthing off about this or that. Although I probably do that a lot in this blog. Hmm... Anyway.

I'm more settled in myself, I don't expect to me things from life external. I just sit and take it as it happens.

Maybe that's just lethargy, although my words could be interpreted in many ways.

You can tell I've been thinking a lot. I really don't have much of a sound board for my thoughts, other than here. So, best used.

I can't imagine all that's in store for me in the next thirty years of my life, even if I live that long.
I knew I didn't know what my life would hold in store and I still don't. Best, I think.

Me, older and wiser? Probably older and more quietly observent. That's the way I'm going I think.

Horoscope, from Jonathan Cainer.

"A dictionary? A thesaurus? An encyclopedia? Perhaps you need none of the above. Perhaps there is now an attempt somewhere in your world, to put a label on something that is best left nebulous. Why must everything be so carefully defined and explained? Why, even, must it be fully understood? You are dealing with something that is essentially amorphous and instinctive. Celebrate it for what it is and honour it with the wisdom of your heart not the judgement of your intellect."

Trust my heart, eh? Not the old noggin.

Apparently according to the horoscope in the metro this morning I'm supposed to have a blinding week. Although, it got off to a bad start. Not the best of starts. Something's going to snag at some point this week. It wont be pleasent. Supposed to be love in the air as well. But to be honest, the only people I'm interested in have already got males attached. Stinks.

Anywho, I'm creamed. Had four hours of sleep last night, not really up to me as it was out of my control. My likes to talk a lot friend insisted on my staying for another cup of tea. Not after another lengthy hours chat. Sigh...

Wasn't happy, but there you go.

But, most importantly I have a day off tomorrow. Yay! My long week is over, now I can have my short week.

I need to go to bed though. Tired.